Now that I have two little ones in my life, I realized how unhealthy I had truly become, not just in body but in spirit as well. I had to get outside. I had to breathe fresh air. I had to socialize. And perhaps most of all, I had to seize the day. "Carpe Diem" is a Latin phrase that has been thrown around in so many circumstances over time that it has almost become trite. But that is exactly what I needed to do. I needed to take as much care of my spirit, emotion, and mental well-being as I had my physical well-being. I, indeed, needed a rebirth or renaissance of sorts. The major question was where to start.
Just like with anything lost, the best place to find ones' self is where you left it last. Where was I last happy? When was I last happy? When was the last time I had actually lived life? My mind immediately took me to the year I taught Latin. I knew that teaching would make a difference in my life and hopefully in the lives that I touched. I laughed, cried, played, danced, and lived as much life as my failing body would let me. That is where I needed to start life again. So, after weighing the pros and cons of my situation, the pros certainly outweighed the cons and I applied for a teaching position at a local middle school. As of now, I don't know if I have the job, but I have realized that that doesn't matter much at all. I have taken the first major step in seizing the day, or rather life by the horns. If I get the job, then I will be elated. If not, then I will be in no worse shape than when I started. However, I have recognized the importance of living life to the fullest. I seriously doubt that my life will ever be ordinary, so as I see it now, my only other option is extraordinary.